Monday, 13 July 2009

Monday 13th July 2009

Before I begin I must confess I do not know what I'm doing here. I've always heard that talking helps but I don't really know who to talk to. I would imagine that this won't really be read by anyone but that's fine, I'm hoping it'll help myself.

I guess I should start by introducing myself, I won't give away too much information since I'd prefer to remain more or less anonymous. Well I'm male , I'm from Scotland and I'm mid 20s. Mid 20s doesn't sound particularly old but I feel like I wasted my life.

I have never really accomplished anything in all my years , well except from getting more depressed with each passing day but you don't win awards for that and even if you did I'm sure Gordon Brown ( the UK prime minister) would win. One of the main problems with depression is if you say you're depressed people think you're just looking for attention but if you don't tell anyone then you'll just cut your wrists and that can be rather difficult to explain to your parents. It's bad enough trying to explain it if you use a knife but I wasn't really enjoying the whole blade on skin sensation so I tried to do it with highlighter pens, it wasn't very effective and to be honest I wouldn't recommend it, though it does add a bit of colour to a more often than not glum situation.

1 comment:

  1. haha highlighter pens. nice one! :P

    you said you have "never really accomplished anything in all your years" ... you are only in your mid twenties! you should stop thinking about the time you have "wasted" and start thinking about what you can do now... or even better, dont think about them, do them! :)