Tuesday, 27 July 2010

Oh hello stupidity

The phone rang yesterday, I picked it up and said "hello" , no answer, I said "hello" again, still no answer, the line wasn't dead I could hear movement. " Hello?" I said once more still no answer but this time I could faintly hear someone. Annoyed I hung up and went back to what I was doing. Wasn't till a little while after I looked at my phone and noticed that I had rung the house from my mobile in my pocket. It was me who I heard moving.

Mystery solved, about an hour later the phone rang again, " Hello?" I answered to which there was no reply, I repeated the process and still no answer, suddenly I remember what I had done earlier and yup it had happened again, I had been talking to myself yet again. 

First driving lesson went okay, only problem being when asked questions I tend to give my answers in a sequence of words, actions and noises. She had asked what happens when a car stalls so I gave a demonstration of the noise and a little shudder of a stalling car. I wasn't particularly good at what she was telling me to do, I couldn't get the hang of steering the way she wanted me to do it, the peddles were a lot more sensitive than my normal xbox controls and being rather tall I didn't fit particularly well into her little Suzuki Swift.

I know I'm intelligent but I can't help but wonder if I'll ever be able to drive, you're supposed to not think and let the actions come naturally. I can't not think. I need to consider everything I'm doing and that usually means I forget something. Both my sister and mother are awful at saying which way is right and left but I'm normally pretty good at it, however when in a car I seem to forget everything.

Oh well at least I got a trip to the Falkirk Wheel. 

Monday, 26 July 2010

It's about time

After many years of using my legs I've finally decided to actually try to legally learn to drive. Of course I'm already an expert thanks to computer games like Project Gotham Racing, Forza and Need for Speed so this should be a cake walk. However I've failed to learn how to use brakes and prefer to use other cars to get around corners "safely" so that could be a minor issue.

My lesson isn't till this afternoon but that just gives me time to build up my anxiety, I'm already worried about killing someone. I've never been good at exams and with my nerves I can't see an instructor passing me. It will open up more opportunities though, more job prospects and of course will help me survive in the mean streets by offering the security of a revenge drive by.

However I can just picture myself passing out or opening the door and running away, with or without the car being stationary.

Friday, 16 July 2010

People still don't listen

The other day someone phoned our house, my father answered and the person said " Yo there's a problem with your computer" now the normal person with common sense would automatically think yo is a strange way to start a business conversation but not my father, he just said to the person of foreign origin that it was his wife who dealt with that and passed the phone over. Now my mother does have an issues with her computer but she's also rather naive so when the person claimed to be Microsoft she blindly believed them.

She sat down at her computer and proceeded to be her helpful self, doing everything the man told her and even trying to joke with them. They directed her to a site nothing to do with Microsoft which lets people have remote access to your computer from anywhere in the world. Hmmm that seems odd but of course they told her they were searching for the problem. Now she sat there for 40 minutes letting them have free range of her files before it asked her to buy something, which at that point she did make some excuses and hang up. The people on the other end didn't hang up though.

Now at that stage I appeared and used my mobile to phone my brother in law who has a good understanding of computers, he told me to disconnect the internet and switch everything off. Which I did.

Meanwhile my father is phoning the house trying to see if he gets through, no still engaged. Chris then says to dial 1471 and get the number to give to the police, I tell my father to dial 1471 and it comes back with a mobile number. I log onto the police website and start looking at forms, I suddenly think of something and ask my father what HIS mobile number is. He doesn't know so goes and looks. Comes back AND the number matches the one he gave me.  

The day after I tell my mother NOT to switch on the computer explaining that it's most likely there will be programmes on her computer to muck up the firewall and virus scanner. I come back later to find out she has used her computer and says it's fine. She doesn't actually know it's fine, she's just saying that. I told her to at least phone her bank and warn them. Does she do that? No instead she logs into her bank account online whilst I'm telling her about keyloggers.

Ah parents are fun.

Sunday, 11 July 2010

Huhs and lisps

Strange title I know but it has some relevance. Woke up a few times during the night and replied to text messages, well at least tried to. I assume everyone knows about predictive text so what you're aiming to type doesn't always come out the way you want it, especially when you're mentally still asleep. It can lead to some bizarre and possible worrying messages being sent.

I probably should start turning my phone off at night but I never really get round to it. I'm pretty good at losing my phone so if it's on I at least have the option of phoning myself to find it.

Spent the morning and early afternoon watching the British grand prix, wasn't too bad, nothing overly exciting after the first lap. I've always wondered how Formula one makes it's money, I'm guessing there's no mega big prize funds at the end so is it all via sponsors? If so surely since Red Bull own their team and they have their own logo on the cars it means they're losing money? Ach well.

Just under 2.5 hours until the world cup final kicks off, hopefully Holland or the Netherlands will win.

Elsewhere in the world I spent the day proving to my father that the tv downstairs doesn't get a good picture due to the aerial from the roof being half way down the house. Even after showing him physical evidence he still says the picture quality has nothing to do with the aerial.

Sunday, 4 July 2010


Sometimes I just hate waking up. I know that I over think and analyse things but somethings just stand out. Like when people don't talk to you for a while. Maybe they're just busy but maybe I've offended them. Not sure how but that's what I think. Maybe they just don't like me anymore. Maybe I'm just annoying. There's a lot of maybes and they all end up negative. I'm not entirely sure what I should do about it. Like when I left school for university you try to keep in touch with your friends from school but when they don't phone you back you don't want to seem like a weirdo and call them again incase they just want rid of you. Then you just leave it for years and years. Of course being me I never really made friends at university either. Ah shyness and social awkwardness how you've molded my life.

Saturday, 3 July 2010

New header

Have a new blog header thanks to my good friend Rachal. She made me a few different ones but sadly I don't know how to save them so the gif animation ones actually work.

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Soon be time for Santa

Can't believe it's July already. Half of 2010 already gone. Just seems so quick.

Most of the year seems wasted, I've been trying to get fitter, gave up on the Irn Bru, been trying harder to get a job, started volunteering and have went out more. Hoping that it will help to lower my social anxiety. So far it has.

Still missing the feel of doing something constructive though. Haven't had a single reply in months.